wrong

im not happy!

sometimes, i feel like im such a failure in managing my life. i tried my very best in everything i do (specially my studies & my money).

Well i admit that im not good in managing my own money but i do try my best to control myself, and i can see changes! I've tried my best to record the amount of money i've used everyday, or what i've spend everyday in a note book. And i'm really happy that it really works actually. But what really hurts me is that my family still don't really trust in me. What should i do?

i know they are very protective. They love me so much that they want the best for me. Well, as a normal human being, yes, if you are wrong, you need to change! i know im not good enough and i want to improve. I did but hello, you cannot change in just 1 second rite? what's in my mind is that--"i think i've improve, and im happy(because i did put effort), and i'll try my very best to improve more." what's in their mind is "no, we need more!!"

sometimes its really stressful but..who knows? (God knows)

and about my studies, i tried hard......but....(i believe im not stupid)
cant write more, luckly there's a box of tissues right beside me :'(

i do look happy everyday, i want to live happily, who doesn't?
hmm...i think i should tell myself , "think +ve and work harder." (& of coz, pray harder).